Update

Wow...I can't believe I haven't written on here since Easter! What a whirlwind Jason and I have been in over the past month! Since my last post, I finished chemo, sold a house, bought a house, started back to work part time, moved into the new house, and cleaned up the old house! Oh, and I turned 30 (which was welcomed for a change!)

Finishing Chemo-
April first was my last day of chemotherapy! This day left me with mixed emotions. I was so ready for chemo to be over and to start feeling normal again but I was also sad and scared. Chemo camp had become a part of my life. Honestly, it was my new normal. I gained several friendships at chemo and through this experience that I wasn't ready to leave. The doctor, nurses and staff at my infusion center were a family who took excellent care of me. They were a major part of my journey! I wasn't ready to leave them just yet. I was scared to return to life as I once knew it.

I was scared that my strengthened relationship with The Lord would return to its lukewarm state. I was scared that I would forget what He has done for us. Hard to believe you could forget who He is, huh?

I wondered why it was so easy for me to "get rid" of this cancer. So many others people cannot. Why me?

I was worried about going back to my "old life" different when everyone else stayed the same.

Lastly, I worried about leaving my security net at the infusion center. I was now on my own medically, trying to continue to ward off this disease. Before, If I had a question I could ask it. I guess I still could, but I'd annoy everyone to death in the process!

Looking back on my chemo finale, I see that all of those fears were produced in an attempt to dampen my hope and faith. I am so thankful for this experience, although painful. It was refreshing and renewing. My old life was purged, so my new life could make its way. My heart is softer and more open to those around me. I pray that my relationship with The Lord will stay the same. We need Him as much as I have through this all the time. Lord please stay close to me and its my desire to stay near to you. I think one of the greatest lessons up to this point is that we desperately need each other. We live lives that are so private. We build privacy fences, we want to be alone, we cover up our failures and our illnesses. We need others. We need encouragement, love, support, advice, and fellowship with each other. Everyone has a story, listen.

Out with the old, in with the new HOUSE-
Jason and I bought a new house obviously. Not really sure why but we did. I think we realized that we were saving money for a future that may or may not happen. I'm sure some may say that this is very bad timing but it was a new start for us. The funny thing is, our new start is less than 1 mile away!

So that's kind of where we are to this point. I'm back at work part time and doing pretty well with it. I'm still dealing with fatigue but I'm overcoming it slowly.

I went back to my oncologist this past Friday for my follow up. He drew some blood to check my AFP levels. This protein level should be virtually no existent. Praying for low, low numbers. We should know some time this week!

Thanks for reading this! All of you all are a blessing and a major part of my journey. I don't know how this would have all transpired without the love of His people and the fellowship that we share in this world!

With love,
Kelly