On this Easter Sunday, I am getting ready for my last day of chemotherapy tomorrow. It is so surreal to be in this place. I never thought I would make it here this fast or this seemingly healthy. Tomorrow will hopefully be the last time that I have to sit in the "chemo" chair and let chemicals course through my veins with a primary purpose to kill so many of my cells. It will also be the last day that I will have to have a PICC line hanging from my upper arm. In so many ways I am more than excited for tomorrow. But in just as many ways, I am almost sad. I can't tell if I'm sad or just scared. Tomorrow will also be the last day that I will get to spend time with some of the friends I have made. My schedule will change tremendously tomorrow. Tomorrow I begin my first steps toward survivorship. And I'm scared but excited. I think I'm more excited....see ya cancer.
I don't think it's by any coincidence that I am finishing chemotherapy the day after Easter. I also don't think it's by any coincidence that my 30th birthday is in a few weeks either. When I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, my slate was wiped clean. I was purified and given a new life, a new start. I now had eternal life. On Easter, The Lord sacrificed His son to save the world. Tomorrow I am also given a new start. God had given me a new perspective, a new start, a deeper respect for life, and a stronger love for Him through this trial. He has refined me and continues to do so.
I'm ready to see what this next step has in store. I'm ready to enter my "normal" life renewed.
"Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die." John 11:25-26
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In His great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead..." 1 Peter 1:3
Happy Easter! He makes all things new!
God is looking down smiling at his good and faithful servant. Your faith will we shared for many years, helping others to understand how much we are loved. I have a pretty good idea on how that kind of emotion can be so powerful, after all a Mother's love is indescribable.
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