The First Doctor's Appointment

Well, I began having left lower pelvic pain and flank pain around the first of January 2013. I spare the weekends for running and was unable to even go run because of this back/pelvic pain. I was also running a very mild low-grade fever. I had no primary care doctor (if that tells you how little I needed to see the doctor) so I decided to get an appointment with my gynecologist (who is wonderful...if that can even be possible!) on January 8th. So, to make a long story short, she and the ultrasound tech found a mass on my left ovary through ultrasound and physical exam.

A dermoid cyst or teratoma. Huh? This lovely thing is about the size of a baseball. What? So, it needs to come out. We schedule a surgery for late January to get this thing out. Before I leave, they take some blood to check for elevated tumor markers and I'm on my way.

2 days later, my gynecologist calls with some unexpected news. My bloodwork came back with some elevated tumor markers. Elevated hCG (human chorionic gonadotropin hormone) and AFP (alpha-fetoprotein) which suggest malignant tumor components. My doctor referred me to a gynecologic oncologist and an appointment was scheduled for Friday, January 11th. I received this call at about 8:15 on a Thursday morning and worked that whole day with this news. I really didn't know what this meant or what to think. Luckily, I work with some incredibly Godly women who helped me through the day. I think this day was just full of shock for both Jason and I. I got home and both of us just sat on the couch going through what-ifs and worries. This was definitely our lowest low to this point.

Now waiting until tomorrow...

I can't say that I completely trusted The Lord at this point. Again, I think I was just overwhelmed with shock. Seriously? I may have the "C" word?!?! And at 29?!?! They're right, you never thought it would be you. I honestly know that He was the only thing that got me through that night. He comforted me in a supernatural way when I look back on it now and He gave me rest that night.

I did know one thing...He was at work.