Cycle One

Well, today marks the end of cycle one! I am officially 1/3 of the way through chemotherapy! These past three weeks have been tough physically, mentally, and spiritually but nonetheless encouraging. I have made it through my first cycle of chemo without being overly sick or discouraged. I am extremely blessed that I have had minimal nausea and fatigue and that for the past two weeks I've been very well! Hopefully, this trend sill continue! as far as my physical appearance goes, I am almost completely bald. I really haven't cared about my lack of hair, other than the process of it falling out is somewhat painful! I don't know the science behind this, but my hair hurts around the places that it is actively falling out?! I have had the opportunity to try out the latest bald trends...scarves, messenger hats, etc. :)

Throughout the past three weeks I have learned a lot about faith. I have also learned a lot about the vastness of God. I really only have the faith of a mustard seed most of the time. I will pray to God for healing, comfort, peace, etc. for myself and for others but I still worry and I still feel like I need to perform for His approval. I yearn to be bold with my prayers, knowing that if I ask something from Him, as long as it follows His plan, He will deliver. Not only does He listen and answer prayer, He is able to do ALL things. Things that aren't explained by science or rationale. He is capable to bring peace, healing and understanding. I pray for my faith to increase. His truths are revealed in His word and I pray for the faith to believe this when I can't see. During this process, I have felt like a hypocrite a lot. I write about faith and peace and I don't have that much of the time. I try. I am willing. I am learning and wouldn't trade my life for anything. Granted my life is a little more complicated than I would like, but He is at work. Transform me into your image Lord, teach me Your ways, and direct me to Your truths!

My devotional this morning focused on faith and Matthew Henry from "Streams in the Desert" had this to say, "Active faith gives thanks for a promise even though it is not yet performed, knowing that God's contracts are as good as cash." So thank you Lord for all you have in store.

"Commit your way to The Lord; trust in Him and he will do this." Psalm 37:5

Here is a picture of today's hairstyle...playing with photo booth on the iPad.