Halfway Through

So...yesterday marked halfway through with chemo treatments! As of today, I only will have 9 more to go! I cannot believe that we have made it this far. I just wanted to tell everyone how much I appreciate all of the prayers, words of encouragement, and support. Through this experience, the power of prayer and fellowship have definitely been revealed to me!

I fully trust in His ability to bring healing to my body and soul in His time; however I'll be honest in that the next few days are going to be a challenge. I hate to go ahead and say that but after the end of my first long week, I felt pretty crummy. I am again starting to feel pretty bad, where all you can think about is being uncomfortable. I really have no room to complain, because I'll take 3-4 bad days out of a a 21-day cycle! It could be so much worse and I see His blessing in that. I pray that I can stay focused over the weekend knowing that this storm will pass and we'll be closer to finishing! I pray that I won't complain too much so Jason can have a decent weekend with me! :)

After reflecting on the first half of treatment, I realize that I do not know where all the time has gone! I desperately miss normalcy, interaction with people, RUNNING, and my babies at work! It feels like all I have done is play incredible amounts of Sudoku, sleep after my Benadryl dose in chemo camp, and watch too many recorded episodes of Parenthood and Duck Dynasty! This is not how I had attended or spend all of this extra time that He had given me! I often complained before all of this with how little time I had to improve my spiritual life, family life, or clean my house. Well, I have had that time and haven't done a thing with it! I believe that He has given me this period of rest at the perfect time. I pray that I will begin to use it more effectively. It just seems easier sometimes to go someplace different and get away from the circumstances at hand. Although I know that we all go through things that aren't easy but are required for our walk. I know that He keeps me in this valley just long enough until I am where He wants me to be.


Well, I guess I should finish up here and pay more attention to my brother (who left the toilet seat up in the women's cancer center....haha). Hope everyone has a great weekend!