He is bigger

Hello everyone! I am officially through with my second cycle of chemotherapy! I am two thirds of the way through! I start my last long week on Monday and am anxious to get it behind it but am also dreading the way I will feel. Don't get me wrong, I am very blessed to have only felt bad for a few days in each cycle! However, you don't feel your best by any means.

I haven't updated this blog is about a week because I haven't had a whole lot to say. I have just been making it through this week and have kept to myself for most of it. Jason and I have had some great friends visit a couple of times this week and we had a great time with each of them. Not to mention the beautiful weather that we had yesterday! We actually tossed around a frisbee with our good friends yesterday next to the South Holston River! I do have an idea for something to talk about finally.

I have been following a family on Facebook that have recently lost their daughter unexpectedly to a brain tumor. Our friends that are missionaries in Kenya know this family because they are also missionaries. In order to not tell the whole story, their one-year-old baby girl was diagnosed with a medulloblastoma, had a surgery to remove it, and passed away all within a few days. Of course her story is much greater than this. Both of her parents have been open about her story through blogs. I cannot even begin to tell you how much this family and their story has touched my life. I am sure this is the same case for many, many other people that have followed their story.

I am incredibly humbled by this story. I know her parents are overwhelmed, heartbroken, and lost without their youngest child but they have shown faith and trust in The Lord and have praised Him from the get go. Their words about their daughter and her life and purpose are inspiring. They have stated over and over that their strength through this is from The Lord. It is through His grace. I think the biggest impact that this story had had in my life is how God has used such a young child to spread His name. This baby girl was unable to tell others about Christ. She was on this earth for less than 2 years and has moved mountains (I do not doubt). Her dad had mentioned that He wanted to share the name of Jesus through their work as missionaries and he had no idea that his daughter would be the one to introduce her family to the world to aid in supporting their mission.

Our God is bigger than our circumstances. Our God is bigger than cancer. Our God uses the least of these. Who can fathom that He can use the saddest situations and the youngest of children to make the impact that it has? Why do we question His power? Why do we question His plan? Shouldn't we just rest assured that we are in His hands regardless? His plan for us is far greater than what we can comprehend...even through struggle, loss, and sadness. He is there is joy, pain, life and death. He never leaves us. He is always by our side. We must have faith and hope in His promises. We must be obedient to His calling. He will bless us greater that we can imagine if we are obedient and hope in Him.

I am humbled by this sweet baby who has met our Savior. She has inspired me. I have had the opportunity to live an amazing 29 years in this life. She lived less than 2. My life has been a gift and I am tired of living each day without telling the world about this gift. Thank you Lord for my life. Thank you for my story. Please continue to humble me. Open my eyes to your purpose for my life. My life is yours. Give me the courage to tell Your story. Amen.

My life has gone in a direction that I wold not have chosen. This is not my idea of prospering. But it's not up to me nor do I trust my plan for this life. He is using my situation in ways that I cannot comprehend. He is equipping me for the rest of my life. I am thankful that he loves me enough to teach me. I will praise him through it all.

I hope I have correctly displayed this family and this sweet girl through this blog. Please pray for this family as they mourn the loss of this daughter. Pray for their mission work and that the name of The Lord and his great works will be spread.

Cycle three, here we come!!!